happy b-day baby rischt!

i am so pist today because, well my little sister is sick. no, i am  not angry at my sister or anything, i'm angry at myself because no matter what i do, i can't think of a way so we can attend the b-day party of baby rischt. our cousin's baby,which is having his b-day today. and though, even , my sister want to go we can't ' cause she is ill. it's not that i 'd rather go to rischt's b-day than stay with my sister to take care of, or anything; its just it's the first b-day of rischt turning 1 yr. today, and we were so hoping to celebrate his b-day together with our cousins. and it's just so such a waste to not go, but at the same time i like my sister to recover faster. there are 3 things i thought of, though:

1st: force mom to go even if my sister is sick, but i know that it'll be impossible. 

2nd: go with my godmother together at the party, but it won't be the same without my sister, though i've done it a hundred times.

and last, 3rd; is come alone, commute to Quezon city; but mom won't allow me.

so there is really nothing i can think of , so we can go to the party. but to be honest i can't think of any ways because i'm scared to hurt either both side, my sister who is ill, and my cousin who really wants me to go, and baby rischt who's b-day celebration. well, either way, by this time they mighty be in the middle of the celebration now, or it's over already... i can't do anything now, atleast my sister have already recover, though not completely, i wish it be though.

.......................................................happy b-day Rischt!..............................................................................

we love you,goodbye!

Jan.15,2010:

this was the day my gandma died,it was the most sorrowful day of our perandos lives. in our family we never had a deceased family member since, now. Every nov.1 we would stay at hoem and offer the souls food we have. today was the day that,that routine change and that we have some one to visit at the cementry now.we loved her so much,especially our grandpa.

Jan. 25,2010:

this was the day of our gandma's funeral. it was a week after gandma's death,it was a week after that for we were waiting for our aunt's and uncle's arrival to see gandma. and at that day we all had a reunion except for some of us cousin who were not able to come for some important reason or some kind.and my grandma was to be burried,and all of us,especially auntie babie,(we call her "antay!")who came two days before grandma's funeral from singapore.many appointment was done just for antay to come for grandma.it was a heart breaker moment,i also cried the 1st day of grandma's funeral.i cried alot that It felt like I'm having suffocation.

the that day all of our family came and gave sympathy....

Jan. 29 ,2010:

friday,the day our section had a battle of badmiton.they were planing for the practice on saturday. i was actually planing to come to make it up for them,from the days i have left because of the unfortunate event. that time that they planning for our practice for our Speech choir,I felt for some reason ,a shiver from my body. It was like my mind was saying that"i should go for my classmates." while both my instinct and heart felt like "i was suppose to go to quezon(my grandfa's location) for some reason i don't know."

Jan. 30,2010:

saturday, 4 am,i woke up for some reason.then over heard my mother's conversation about grandfa. mama(my mother's sister)told to mom ,panicly, that my grandfa was having trouble breathing. so my mom hurriedly change while i, i didn't care if my mom would approve me to go with her.so we went to east ave.,quezon city,we arrive there at 5:30am . finding grandfa having trouble from his situation.

11:30am:

we found that grandfa was already dead,.

at 11:45:

us cousin and my sister was at the car of mama,suppose to sleep to pay back from our sleepless nights. but instead we taked about missing our grandfa, and how my cousin was the witnessed of how our grandfa died.he said from his discription that "grandfa took two deep breaths before he died and died with eyes open."it was a very sad story.

Jan. 30,2010:

was grandfa's 2nd funeral and day to be buried. i didn't cried that much as my grandma's death,maybe 'cuz i was ready and accept the reality that they have to go and be together again.

P.S.:

Grandfa,After getting home from grandma's burial he came home and went looking for grandma. we would tell him straight that we just got home from grandma's burial.and would deny everything we say, and would insist that she is here.he would say that "grandma was here and even told us that she was here walking around".

.......Grandad's could never leave long without their wife.........

-my bestfriends statement-

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cecilleperandos